Crossing The Dark Side

Hello again. I know it's been a while I don't update this blog. You know, writer's block. Ahh.. Excuses!

I just finished watch a movie. It's "Jane Austen Book Club", the movie itself is about exploring Austen's adage that general incivility is at love's essence. Sylvia's husband dumps her for another woman, so Bernadette and Jocelyn organize a book club to distract her. They recruit Sylvia's daughter Allegra; Prudie, a young teacher whose marriage may be on the rocks; and Grigg, a sci-fi fan who joins out of attraction to Jocelyn. The six read and discuss one Austen novel per month. Jocelyn tries to interest Grigg in Sylvia; Allegra falls in love with a woman she meets skydiving; Prudie contemplates an affair with a student; Sylvia's ex keeps popping up. In the discussions, characters reveal themselves in their comments. (from here)

Sounds a complicated drama? Not really, it was quiet light movie, but since it's a light movie, I took the other point of view of this movie. I mean, I try to analyze of each character of that movie. The one that caught my attention, it's Jocelyn's character played by Maria Bello. This character has complicated nature. When this character likes someone, she, with full awareness, gives the person she likes to someone else. In this case, to her bestfriend. And the other favorite is Prudie. Well, why my favorite? I think she has this character that almost like my character. She's an uptight girl who has a dark side.

Let's talk about dark side of a human. This dark side doesn't mean a bad thing, I mean another side of a person whom that person doesn't realize yet. In this movie, each character has its own dark side. I myself, surprised in several scenes. Are humans really like them?

These characters make me think about how complicated a human can be. I know, human behaviour are don't meant to be understand, we just acknowledge it. That's all. But don't you sometimes curious about ourselves? For me, human behaviour is always interesting. Remember, human behaviour is related to their mind. The shifting minds affect our behaviour.

Yeah ok, maybe some of you just want to scream, "hey bitch! Stop sweating the small stuff!" Hey, this is me. I always questioning about everything.

One is The Loneliest Number

I'm sitting here, sitting in front of my TV, while listening to music that comes out from my baby. Actually, I just got back from out with friends, really good friends indeed. We went to Casa in Kemang. Ok, this time i don't want to talk about Casa itself.

I got something in my mind now. It's about loneliness. Right after we arrived there, I remembered, that place provide a free internet service through wifi. And then I just turned my wifi, and i started to chat with some friends, and start to take care my facebook. Actually, not just me, a friend of mine did the same thing. There were 7 other people in the same table. But me and my friend, we just start to roam around to the other world from our small screen. I spent like an hour or so with my small screen. Ok, the point is that I can feel lonely though surrounded by 8 other people. It made me question myself. What am I doing? There are 8 other people near me, but I roamed around to the other world? No, it wasn't just happened to me. I look to the other tables where each persons are sticking their eyes to their blackberries. Sometimes new technology can really scares the shit out of me.

Us, people who lives in a big city, always look for something that made us feel less lonely. We look for our own pleasure on the internet. I didn't say I don't do it, infact I do it! Even sometimes it's a sinfully guilty pleasure. Or sometimes we went out to a loud and noisy place for serenity, let's say, a disco But look around us, sometimes we even forgot that we're surrounded by wonderful people, like friends and family. The beauty of real life socializing is in front of our eyes, but why do we always look for something more? Something that sometimes doesn't even exist. Where we can chat, laugh, or even cry with our friends, but sometimes we just skip it and choose something vague. Why we always look something far while there are beautiful thing in front of our eyes? But are we really lonely, until we have to look it somewhere else that far from us? Sometimes we can't even spot the differences between the reality and the imaginary, it's like separated by red thin fine line. Ok, gone to the disco is real life socializing, but can we really socializing in a very loud and noisy and over packed place? I'm sure the answer is no, but why we still go to that place?

Does new technology makes us really forgot our social life? I mean the real social life? Or are we just looking for something to make us feel less lonely? But am I feel lonely?

Sssshhhhh! It's a secret!

Class! Today we're going to learn something about secret. What is a secret actually? According to Wikipedia, secrecy or furtiveness is the practice of sharing information among a group of people, which can be as small as one person, while hiding it from all others. That which is kept hidden is known as the secret. Nice definition! But I only agree half of it. Why am I interested in talking about this topic? I just realize this topic when I read this beautiful blog. I regularly visit this blog. In this blog, random people sent a piece of postcard (how romantic?!) that contain a secret that person hold on to.

For me, a secret is something that we couldn't share. If someone tells a secret to someone else, then it turns to be a story. Period. Look, I don't forbid you, people, not to have a secret or millions of it. Nu uh! I even have my own secrets. Things that I won't share to anybody in this world, not even in the next world (well, only if they exist). My secrets will be kept until I die.

What about secret sharing? Secret sharing is one way for men to establish traditional relations with other men. It's like a secret group or sect. Hmmm... Each man on that group knows to do, but outside of that group, no. Is it a secret then? For me, that is not a secret, it's an agreement, a pact. An agreement amongst several person inside that group, that if someone tells something to someone, that person will be expell, or for worst will be kill.

Yes, a secret could kill. Even if that secret is a one person secret. The question is, is a secret good or bad?