Conquering the Super Semi Pretentious Grand Indonesia

It's almost 3.30 AM and I'm still talking about what happened today. It's been awhile I'm not going out for shopping, especially an unintentional shopping. Grand Indonesia, which I consider it as the largest mall here in this country, is celebrating its grand opening by holding 2 days of midnight sale. I went there with my parents. The mall itself is super cool! It has 2 department stores, they are Seibu and Harvey Nichols (the first HN in Asia, how cool is that!) The mall also has millions of local and international brands, such as Zara; Pull and bear; GAP; etc. And not to forget, this mall is big, I mean SUUUUUUPPPPEEEERRR big!

Ok, the sale starts at 8 PM. Me and my parents were there since 4 PM. At first, I bought a tshirt. It was a steal! It cost only Rp. 114,500.00 (US$11.2) from this cool Indonesian brand, it's (X) S.M.L. Here's the pic:

When we were walk around the mall, I saw this super, no, über cool jacket/hoodie in Topman! It looks likethe duffel coat I always love. The price? Darn.. It's expensive. It cost Rp. 839,000.00 (US$82) I know, maybe for some people in the other side of this world consider it cheap, but not here! But then, the sales attendant told me that Topman start its midnight sale at 10PM, and that item is one of the sale items. The discount is 20%, which means the hoodie price got reduce to Rp. 671,200.00 (US$ 65). Cheap? Not for me! It's still expensive! *well, I just lost US$70.* Here's the pic:

Oh yes, my parents bought it for.. ME! Thank you! I♥you!

Edging

Hmmmm... The title sounds tempting eh? No, i'm not talking about that kind of edging you friggin' perv! Like usual, I'm talking about humans. Humans with their own behaviour. This time about how humans love to test themselves onto the edge.

Last night, I hang out at my friend's home. The main plan was to watch korean TV series on DVD, but we just chatted until midnight. There were 5 of us, then I remembered to show my friends about Yooouuutuuube. All got amazed, even one of my friend came up with an idea of LSD-ing. Even she said, "oh shit, I want it now, using this trippy vision thingy." I just smiled. Then one of my friend told a story about his friend. His friend took three piece of LSD into his own mouth, and it leads him to move to the mental institution. Apparently his nerves system broke down, and none of doctors in Jakarta could fix it.

No, I tell you this story because I want LSD-ing. Not at all! I tell you this story because I want to show you that humans can push themselves to the edge, even jump off of it. That story is from druggies side. How about from our daily life?

In love life, humans push themselves onto the edge. Humans want to do anything for the love sake. Is it blinded by love or just plain stupid? The answer is all up to you, you have to look it from your own perspectives.

Not just love life or drugs life, humans always push themselves to the edge in every single aspects of their life. We always stand on the edge of a cliff, ready to fall at any time and rate. What if we fall to the valley of the darkness? Well, it's our own consequences. Scary? Naaah.. It's something we always do. It's just sometimes we don't realize it. Can we just not standing on the edge of a cliff? No we can't, unless you're comma or dead. Ahahaha..

My Personality

Crossing The Dark Side

Hello again. I know it's been a while I don't update this blog. You know, writer's block. Ahh.. Excuses!

I just finished watch a movie. It's "Jane Austen Book Club", the movie itself is about exploring Austen's adage that general incivility is at love's essence. Sylvia's husband dumps her for another woman, so Bernadette and Jocelyn organize a book club to distract her. They recruit Sylvia's daughter Allegra; Prudie, a young teacher whose marriage may be on the rocks; and Grigg, a sci-fi fan who joins out of attraction to Jocelyn. The six read and discuss one Austen novel per month. Jocelyn tries to interest Grigg in Sylvia; Allegra falls in love with a woman she meets skydiving; Prudie contemplates an affair with a student; Sylvia's ex keeps popping up. In the discussions, characters reveal themselves in their comments. (from here)

Sounds a complicated drama? Not really, it was quiet light movie, but since it's a light movie, I took the other point of view of this movie. I mean, I try to analyze of each character of that movie. The one that caught my attention, it's Jocelyn's character played by Maria Bello. This character has complicated nature. When this character likes someone, she, with full awareness, gives the person she likes to someone else. In this case, to her bestfriend. And the other favorite is Prudie. Well, why my favorite? I think she has this character that almost like my character. She's an uptight girl who has a dark side.

Let's talk about dark side of a human. This dark side doesn't mean a bad thing, I mean another side of a person whom that person doesn't realize yet. In this movie, each character has its own dark side. I myself, surprised in several scenes. Are humans really like them?

These characters make me think about how complicated a human can be. I know, human behaviour are don't meant to be understand, we just acknowledge it. That's all. But don't you sometimes curious about ourselves? For me, human behaviour is always interesting. Remember, human behaviour is related to their mind. The shifting minds affect our behaviour.

Yeah ok, maybe some of you just want to scream, "hey bitch! Stop sweating the small stuff!" Hey, this is me. I always questioning about everything.

One is The Loneliest Number

I'm sitting here, sitting in front of my TV, while listening to music that comes out from my baby. Actually, I just got back from out with friends, really good friends indeed. We went to Casa in Kemang. Ok, this time i don't want to talk about Casa itself.

I got something in my mind now. It's about loneliness. Right after we arrived there, I remembered, that place provide a free internet service through wifi. And then I just turned my wifi, and i started to chat with some friends, and start to take care my facebook. Actually, not just me, a friend of mine did the same thing. There were 7 other people in the same table. But me and my friend, we just start to roam around to the other world from our small screen. I spent like an hour or so with my small screen. Ok, the point is that I can feel lonely though surrounded by 8 other people. It made me question myself. What am I doing? There are 8 other people near me, but I roamed around to the other world? No, it wasn't just happened to me. I look to the other tables where each persons are sticking their eyes to their blackberries. Sometimes new technology can really scares the shit out of me.

Us, people who lives in a big city, always look for something that made us feel less lonely. We look for our own pleasure on the internet. I didn't say I don't do it, infact I do it! Even sometimes it's a sinfully guilty pleasure. Or sometimes we went out to a loud and noisy place for serenity, let's say, a disco But look around us, sometimes we even forgot that we're surrounded by wonderful people, like friends and family. The beauty of real life socializing is in front of our eyes, but why do we always look for something more? Something that sometimes doesn't even exist. Where we can chat, laugh, or even cry with our friends, but sometimes we just skip it and choose something vague. Why we always look something far while there are beautiful thing in front of our eyes? But are we really lonely, until we have to look it somewhere else that far from us? Sometimes we can't even spot the differences between the reality and the imaginary, it's like separated by red thin fine line. Ok, gone to the disco is real life socializing, but can we really socializing in a very loud and noisy and over packed place? I'm sure the answer is no, but why we still go to that place?

Does new technology makes us really forgot our social life? I mean the real social life? Or are we just looking for something to make us feel less lonely? But am I feel lonely?

Sssshhhhh! It's a secret!

Class! Today we're going to learn something about secret. What is a secret actually? According to Wikipedia, secrecy or furtiveness is the practice of sharing information among a group of people, which can be as small as one person, while hiding it from all others. That which is kept hidden is known as the secret. Nice definition! But I only agree half of it. Why am I interested in talking about this topic? I just realize this topic when I read this beautiful blog. I regularly visit this blog. In this blog, random people sent a piece of postcard (how romantic?!) that contain a secret that person hold on to.

For me, a secret is something that we couldn't share. If someone tells a secret to someone else, then it turns to be a story. Period. Look, I don't forbid you, people, not to have a secret or millions of it. Nu uh! I even have my own secrets. Things that I won't share to anybody in this world, not even in the next world (well, only if they exist). My secrets will be kept until I die.

What about secret sharing? Secret sharing is one way for men to establish traditional relations with other men. It's like a secret group or sect. Hmmm... Each man on that group knows to do, but outside of that group, no. Is it a secret then? For me, that is not a secret, it's an agreement, a pact. An agreement amongst several person inside that group, that if someone tells something to someone, that person will be expell, or for worst will be kill.

Yes, a secret could kill. Even if that secret is a one person secret. The question is, is a secret good or bad?

A Quest Towards Happiness

We, humans, always aftering for happiness. What is happiness exactly? According to Wikipedia, happiness is a state of mind or feeling such as contentment, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy. A variety of philosophical, religious, psychological and biological approaches have been taken to defining happiness and identifying its sources. A state of mind, that means happiness itself doesn't have any form, it's abstract. So why are we, humans, keep aftering for it? Why do we keep aftering something that doesn't even has a form?

A friend of mine, she just broke up with his boyfriend. A friend of her asked her, "are you happy with him?" Then my friend, she couldn't even answer that question. She didn't know how to answer that simple question. She admitted to me, she didn't even know what she felt back then. She only felt that this guy was a good catch. She thought that she found the Mr. Right. The thing that happened to my friend, leads me to a question. Does happiness really exist? That question has been swimming in my mind these last several days. This is like a One Million Dollar question. The question that I barely know the answer.

Lots of people claiming their own form of happiness. They claim, mostly, money and love is their happiness. I think none of them is my form of happiness, those two things are humans basic needs. Humans need money, humans need to be love. Based by the Wiki definition, I only agree with the psychological approaches. Happiness is just a state of mind. It relates to somebodies psychological condition. But for me, that's not a conclusion. I perfectly know we control our own mind. Our mind is a very wonderful thing, it's like our mind is a computer of our daily activities. In fact, not just activities, our mind controls our own universe. Please underline "our own universe", a thing we create, a thing doesn't have concrete form. Why? Why do we keep aftering something that vague? Are we living a fake lives? Or are we just trying too hard to make the surroundings comfortable?

Leo Nikolaevich Tolstoy once said:

Happiness does not depend on outward things, but on the way we see them

Tolstoy acknowledge happiness. Does that mean really exists? I need an answer. That's all.


PS: There's no pun intended in this post. I write it because that question's been swimming in my mind. If there's a reader feels offended, please don't. Trust me!