Kenapa begitu? Saya jadi bingung sendiri, yang salah siapa sih? Saya atau the whole world.
Akhir-akhir ini saya ngerasa kok lingkungan saya berbalik melawan saya ya?
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Song Of The Day
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Saturday, April 6, 2013
Saturday, March 16, 2013
The Longest Hiatus
Even a bear can't has a hiatus this long! Ya gimana ya, since 2009, saya lebih tertarik dengan platform Tumblr yang lebih mudah ketimbang platform blogspot ini yang musti sedikit banyak mengetahui tentang HTML language.
Terlalu banyak kejadian yang bisa diceritakan dari tahun 2009. Terakhir saya posting di sini aja saya masih pengangguran ya. Sekarang saya sudah bekerja, di sebuah multinational advertising agency. Ini tempat kerja kedua saya, sebelumnya di sebuah local corporate communication agency. Basically, these 2 companies are thae same. An agency. The different is, current company has more interesting environment. Surrounded by young, as in real young or young-at-heart, people. I love this company so much. Working has never been easy before this company. Though this company is a fast paced company, you know chased by deadlines, but if we work in a fun environment everything seems easy. Ok, enough with work related.
Saya merasa saya banyak berubah semenjak kali terakhir saya posting di sini. I'm getting older and a slight wiser than before, though I feel still like I'm stuck in 21 years old :P. Now we're talking the interesting part, the love life. Love life for me is never on the top of the list. Saya selalu merasa saya adalah orang yang tidak pernah bisa menjalankan sebuah relationship. Tahun 2011, saya punya pacar. Orang ini dulunya pernah kerja di kantor yang sama. Mungkin di 3 bulan pertama, things are just ok. Lalu setelahnya saya ngerasa itu adalah sebuah rutinitas. Saya nggak suka, karena saya merasa gerah. Hubungan itu berjalan sampai 11 bulan kalau nggak salah, sekitar bulan Agustus 2012. I'm the one who called it quits. Orang ini rupanya hold a grudge on me, dia menyebut saya sebagai mantannya yang benalu. HA! Alright, whatevs. Saya nggak perduli dia mau ngomong apa.
Current love life, ummmmm... Gimana ya? Setelah saya putus sama orang ini, saya memang nggak dekat sama siapa-siapa. I only had two, one night stands. Satu kejadian ketika saya berlibur ke SG, dan satu lagi... Ummmm... Ya ini, the case of one night stand gone wrong. Why do I call it as the one night stand gone wrong? Jadi gini ceritanya, di suatu awal bulan Februari, orang ini menghubungi saya melalu instant messaging. Kebetulan orang ini memang tinggal di luar kota, Semarang tepatnya.
Orang ini menghubungi saya ketika dia ke Jakarta, and wanted to fulfill this person's sex needs. Since I need it too, so I said yes. We met one night, I visited this person's hotel to have sex. And we did. I couldn't recall what we did, but then I just couldn't stop thinking about this person. Berbeda dengan yang di SG, that was pure one night stand. With this person, it felt different. A week later, I contacted this person. Things were get even weirder. This asked me to visit Semarang. The weirdest thing is, I said yes. Because I remember I'm having 2 days leave from work at the end of February for birthday. Then I went there.
Everything was sweet over there. It was very sweet. It was the sweetest 3 days of my life. I'm in love. And I was wrong.
We wanted to go further, relationship wise. Tapi ada 1 hal yang mengganjal, paling tidak buat saya. Yaitu dia akan pindah ke Australia awal bulan April. Gini, mungkin saya bukan orang yang bisa menjalani suatu hubungan yang terlalu dekat, maksudnya dalam arti kata lokasi dan perasaan. Saya tipe orang yang yang mudah gerah, seperti yang sudah saya bilang. Tapi kalu menjalani LDR, saya juga nggak mungkin apalagi kalau udah beda negara. Saya udah cukup ngerasainnya.
Setelah Semarang, semua berjalan absurd. Dia selalu mengatakan kalau dia sayang saya, begitupun juga saya berkata hal yang sama. Sampai di satu titik, saya berbicara dengan serius dengan dia. Kita membicarakan hubungan kita yang semakin, menurut saya, abu-abu. Kita terlihat seperti pacaran, tapi sejatinya kita tidak. Sampai akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk tidak membangun sebuah relationship. Anehnya, walaupun kita mengakatan tidak untuk relationship, hubungan kita semakin intense. Hal ini membuat semuanya semakin berantakan menurut saya. How can I move on if things are getting intense?
Tapi, udah 2 hari terakhir ini saya ngerasa gerah lagi. Entah kenapa. My Italian friend said I'm a free soul. I don't know what I can learn from this situation. Kalau dibilang ternyata saya bisa pacaran, ya bisa. Tapi hanya untuk temporary. Ah saya pusing!
Terlalu banyak kejadian yang bisa diceritakan dari tahun 2009. Terakhir saya posting di sini aja saya masih pengangguran ya. Sekarang saya sudah bekerja, di sebuah multinational advertising agency. Ini tempat kerja kedua saya, sebelumnya di sebuah local corporate communication agency. Basically, these 2 companies are thae same. An agency. The different is, current company has more interesting environment. Surrounded by young, as in real young or young-at-heart, people. I love this company so much. Working has never been easy before this company. Though this company is a fast paced company, you know chased by deadlines, but if we work in a fun environment everything seems easy. Ok, enough with work related.
Saya merasa saya banyak berubah semenjak kali terakhir saya posting di sini. I'm getting older and a slight wiser than before, though I feel still like I'm stuck in 21 years old :P. Now we're talking the interesting part, the love life. Love life for me is never on the top of the list. Saya selalu merasa saya adalah orang yang tidak pernah bisa menjalankan sebuah relationship. Tahun 2011, saya punya pacar. Orang ini dulunya pernah kerja di kantor yang sama. Mungkin di 3 bulan pertama, things are just ok. Lalu setelahnya saya ngerasa itu adalah sebuah rutinitas. Saya nggak suka, karena saya merasa gerah. Hubungan itu berjalan sampai 11 bulan kalau nggak salah, sekitar bulan Agustus 2012. I'm the one who called it quits. Orang ini rupanya hold a grudge on me, dia menyebut saya sebagai mantannya yang benalu. HA! Alright, whatevs. Saya nggak perduli dia mau ngomong apa.
Current love life, ummmmm... Gimana ya? Setelah saya putus sama orang ini, saya memang nggak dekat sama siapa-siapa. I only had two, one night stands. Satu kejadian ketika saya berlibur ke SG, dan satu lagi... Ummmm... Ya ini, the case of one night stand gone wrong. Why do I call it as the one night stand gone wrong? Jadi gini ceritanya, di suatu awal bulan Februari, orang ini menghubungi saya melalu instant messaging. Kebetulan orang ini memang tinggal di luar kota, Semarang tepatnya.
Orang ini menghubungi saya ketika dia ke Jakarta, and wanted to fulfill this person's sex needs. Since I need it too, so I said yes. We met one night, I visited this person's hotel to have sex. And we did. I couldn't recall what we did, but then I just couldn't stop thinking about this person. Berbeda dengan yang di SG, that was pure one night stand. With this person, it felt different. A week later, I contacted this person. Things were get even weirder. This asked me to visit Semarang. The weirdest thing is, I said yes. Because I remember I'm having 2 days leave from work at the end of February for birthday. Then I went there.
Everything was sweet over there. It was very sweet. It was the sweetest 3 days of my life. I'm in love. And I was wrong.
We wanted to go further, relationship wise. Tapi ada 1 hal yang mengganjal, paling tidak buat saya. Yaitu dia akan pindah ke Australia awal bulan April. Gini, mungkin saya bukan orang yang bisa menjalani suatu hubungan yang terlalu dekat, maksudnya dalam arti kata lokasi dan perasaan. Saya tipe orang yang yang mudah gerah, seperti yang sudah saya bilang. Tapi kalu menjalani LDR, saya juga nggak mungkin apalagi kalau udah beda negara. Saya udah cukup ngerasainnya.
Setelah Semarang, semua berjalan absurd. Dia selalu mengatakan kalau dia sayang saya, begitupun juga saya berkata hal yang sama. Sampai di satu titik, saya berbicara dengan serius dengan dia. Kita membicarakan hubungan kita yang semakin, menurut saya, abu-abu. Kita terlihat seperti pacaran, tapi sejatinya kita tidak. Sampai akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk tidak membangun sebuah relationship. Anehnya, walaupun kita mengakatan tidak untuk relationship, hubungan kita semakin intense. Hal ini membuat semuanya semakin berantakan menurut saya. How can I move on if things are getting intense?
Tapi, udah 2 hari terakhir ini saya ngerasa gerah lagi. Entah kenapa. My Italian friend said I'm a free soul. I don't know what I can learn from this situation. Kalau dibilang ternyata saya bisa pacaran, ya bisa. Tapi hanya untuk temporary. Ah saya pusing!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Va-va-va-VACATION!
Hmm.. It's already July. I'm still surprised how fast the time flies. It feels like yesterday I had my NYE with my friend, Andhita. But look at your calendar, it's already mid year! Mid year only means one thing. It's summer! Everybody in this world loves summer. It's the season where we just lazying around under the bright sun. Yup, summer means vacation for everybody. How's your summer my dear reader? Well, I know it's too early to blurt that kind of recap question at you. Summer just began in less than 1 month ago. So I'm pretty sure that all you readers are still planning your vacaycay that usually occurs around end of July to early August.
I started my summer vacaycay as early as the first day the season starts. Well, not the first day, but a day after the first day. On June 22, I went to Bangkok with my parents, but not for Dad, he went there for work. It was sort of surprise, considering the last time I went vacation was in 2002 *no wonder I'm such a depressed kind of guy*. It was a 4 days trip, ugh, 3, no, 2 days and a half trip. From June 22 to 25.
Day 1
My flight was at noon. We were flying using Thai Airways, and they only have 1 flight per day from Jakarta to Bangkok or Bangkok to Jakarta. We arrived in this super sophisticated Suvarnabhumi Airport at around 4.30 PM *Jakarta and Bangkok share the same time zone*. Then, there was a van, a big van, took us to the hotel. Our hotel is located in one of the busiest street in Bangkok. It was a nice hotel. Right after we settled down, me and my mom decided to go to Suan Lum, dad had this business dinner so he couldn't join us. We started our night at 6.30 that night. Suan Lum is a night market, it's located 7 MRT stations away from our hotel (oh yes, I count!). How can I describe that place. It was a cool, no, awesome, no, great market. Imagine 3700 stalls in one area, not too small area. We can find something something in that market. From A to Z, basically everything. I love that market, especially the local designers section. That section filled with lots of artsy people with artsy stuffs, the uncommon stuffs that you couldn't even find in any malls in this world. Oh I really in love with that part of Suan Lum. We ate there in this small food stall, which most of their foods coantain pork. The fact I love Thai food, it's because most of their foods are using fish sauce. Fish sauce adds this certain pleasant taste. Ooowh.. Love it! We ended our night at around 11, almost midnight. My thighs and calves felt like it was gonna burst!
Day 2
The day starts very early, well at least for me. I woke up as early as 6.30 in the morning. That day, my dad couldn't join me and my mom at all. He had this thing to do with his work. Me and my mom's plan was having shopping in big malls. There were at least 3 malls we wanted to visit. At the end we visited 5 malls. First of all, we had our breakfast at Auntie Anne's at this unidentified underground mall. Then we continued our journey to Siam Paragon. This mall is big, I mean REALLY BIG! They have this ocean world in the underground, complete with underwater glass tunnel, 4D cinema, and you know what, they have this super large tank for scuba diving and glass bottom boat thingy! Imagine that! Then we continued to walk to siam discovery, and another siam plaza chain. The skywalk ended at this place MBK. This place is amazing. It's a haven for cheap shoppers (read: fake; cheap knockoffs). Not just cheap thrills, they have other mid-ranged-price stuffs. I found a shoes there. At the top floor, it's electronic floor. Guess what, I saw iPhone Nano, which never exists in this world! Crazy eh? Then we head back to Siam Paragon for lunch, before we continue to Central World. But we only spent a little time in that mall, because dad called us and wanted to join us. So we headed back to the hotel to pick him up and went to Suan Lum again. That time, we spent a little bit longer than the night before. Oh my, I heart that night bazaar too much. The day ended at another almost midnight.
Day 3
Aaah.. This day way very interesting. Like usual, the day started very early, but this time not for shopping but for city tour. Mom arranged a tour with this fun tour guide to Wat Arun and the Grand Palace. Wat Arun is a temple by the Chao Phraya river. To get there we had to ride this traditional boat, that looked not safe at all, but hey I'm still fine up until now. The temple covered with broken ceramics. It's like mosaic in a massive size. Oh, the tour guide bought us the best Thai iced tea we ever had in our entire life. Gosh, miss that beverage so much! The the tour continued to Grand Palace. It's the place of the kings of Thai, which means beautiful. No, beyond beautiful! 'nuff said. After the tour, we ended up at.. the malls! Oh my, I almost malls OD'ed. I realized that malls in Bangkok are super massive. The central world almost made my calves blown. We spent our times there until 9 PM, then we headed back to the hotel.
Day 4
Aaargh.. Our flight was at 8 in the morning. So we already at the airport at 6. No other things I could tell, except there's a Hermes' boutique in the airport. No, I didn't bought any of it, couldn't afford it.
Whoa.. I heart that city, though it has the same vibe with Jakarta. I miss all those colors that floating around that city. The traffic jam is pretty crazy, just like Jakarta. But hey, cute guys are everywhere! Ahahahaha..
Well, sorry for the late post, maybe there are some details I forgot. I was too lazy to write. But picture tells all, right? You can check it on my Flickr set. Actually the real summer vacation is about to come. Just wait for my update here ok? Just pray that I won't be too lazy to write!
I started my summer vacaycay as early as the first day the season starts. Well, not the first day, but a day after the first day. On June 22, I went to Bangkok with my parents, but not for Dad, he went there for work. It was sort of surprise, considering the last time I went vacation was in 2002 *no wonder I'm such a depressed kind of guy*. It was a 4 days trip, ugh, 3, no, 2 days and a half trip. From June 22 to 25.
Day 1
My flight was at noon. We were flying using Thai Airways, and they only have 1 flight per day from Jakarta to Bangkok or Bangkok to Jakarta. We arrived in this super sophisticated Suvarnabhumi Airport at around 4.30 PM *Jakarta and Bangkok share the same time zone*. Then, there was a van, a big van, took us to the hotel. Our hotel is located in one of the busiest street in Bangkok. It was a nice hotel. Right after we settled down, me and my mom decided to go to Suan Lum, dad had this business dinner so he couldn't join us. We started our night at 6.30 that night. Suan Lum is a night market, it's located 7 MRT stations away from our hotel (oh yes, I count!). How can I describe that place. It was a cool, no, awesome, no, great market. Imagine 3700 stalls in one area, not too small area. We can find something something in that market. From A to Z, basically everything. I love that market, especially the local designers section. That section filled with lots of artsy people with artsy stuffs, the uncommon stuffs that you couldn't even find in any malls in this world. Oh I really in love with that part of Suan Lum. We ate there in this small food stall, which most of their foods coantain pork. The fact I love Thai food, it's because most of their foods are using fish sauce. Fish sauce adds this certain pleasant taste. Ooowh.. Love it! We ended our night at around 11, almost midnight. My thighs and calves felt like it was gonna burst!
Day 2
The day starts very early, well at least for me. I woke up as early as 6.30 in the morning. That day, my dad couldn't join me and my mom at all. He had this thing to do with his work. Me and my mom's plan was having shopping in big malls. There were at least 3 malls we wanted to visit. At the end we visited 5 malls. First of all, we had our breakfast at Auntie Anne's at this unidentified underground mall. Then we continued our journey to Siam Paragon. This mall is big, I mean REALLY BIG! They have this ocean world in the underground, complete with underwater glass tunnel, 4D cinema, and you know what, they have this super large tank for scuba diving and glass bottom boat thingy! Imagine that! Then we continued to walk to siam discovery, and another siam plaza chain. The skywalk ended at this place MBK. This place is amazing. It's a haven for cheap shoppers (read: fake; cheap knockoffs). Not just cheap thrills, they have other mid-ranged-price stuffs. I found a shoes there. At the top floor, it's electronic floor. Guess what, I saw iPhone Nano, which never exists in this world! Crazy eh? Then we head back to Siam Paragon for lunch, before we continue to Central World. But we only spent a little time in that mall, because dad called us and wanted to join us. So we headed back to the hotel to pick him up and went to Suan Lum again. That time, we spent a little bit longer than the night before. Oh my, I heart that night bazaar too much. The day ended at another almost midnight.
Day 3
Aaah.. This day way very interesting. Like usual, the day started very early, but this time not for shopping but for city tour. Mom arranged a tour with this fun tour guide to Wat Arun and the Grand Palace. Wat Arun is a temple by the Chao Phraya river. To get there we had to ride this traditional boat, that looked not safe at all, but hey I'm still fine up until now. The temple covered with broken ceramics. It's like mosaic in a massive size. Oh, the tour guide bought us the best Thai iced tea we ever had in our entire life. Gosh, miss that beverage so much! The the tour continued to Grand Palace. It's the place of the kings of Thai, which means beautiful. No, beyond beautiful! 'nuff said. After the tour, we ended up at.. the malls! Oh my, I almost malls OD'ed. I realized that malls in Bangkok are super massive. The central world almost made my calves blown. We spent our times there until 9 PM, then we headed back to the hotel.
Day 4
Aaargh.. Our flight was at 8 in the morning. So we already at the airport at 6. No other things I could tell, except there's a Hermes' boutique in the airport. No, I didn't bought any of it, couldn't afford it.
Whoa.. I heart that city, though it has the same vibe with Jakarta. I miss all those colors that floating around that city. The traffic jam is pretty crazy, just like Jakarta. But hey, cute guys are everywhere! Ahahahaha..
Well, sorry for the late post, maybe there are some details I forgot. I was too lazy to write. But picture tells all, right? You can check it on my Flickr set. Actually the real summer vacation is about to come. Just wait for my update here ok? Just pray that I won't be too lazy to write!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Conquering the Super Semi Pretentious Grand Indonesia
It's almost 3.30 AM and I'm still talking about what happened today. It's been awhile I'm not going out for shopping, especially an unintentional shopping. Grand Indonesia, which I consider it as the largest mall here in this country, is celebrating its grand opening by holding 2 days of midnight sale. I went there with my parents. The mall itself is super cool! It has 2 department stores, they are Seibu and Harvey Nichols (the first HN in Asia, how cool is that!) The mall also has millions of local and international brands, such as Zara; Pull and bear; GAP; etc. And not to forget, this mall is big, I mean SUUUUUUPPPPEEEERRR big!
Ok, the sale starts at 8 PM. Me and my parents were there since 4 PM. At first, I bought a tshirt. It was a steal! It cost only Rp. 114,500.00 (US$11.2) from this cool Indonesian brand, it's (X) S.M.L. Here's the pic:
When we were walk around the mall, I saw this super, no, über cool jacket/hoodie in Topman! It looks likethe duffel coat I always love. The price? Darn.. It's expensive. It cost Rp. 839,000.00 (US$82) I know, maybe for some people in the other side of this world consider it cheap, but not here! But then, the sales attendant told me that Topman start its midnight sale at 10PM, and that item is one of the sale items. The discount is 20%, which means the hoodie price got reduce to Rp. 671,200.00 (US$ 65). Cheap? Not for me! It's still expensive! *well, I just lost US$70.* Here's the pic:
Oh yes, my parents bought it for.. ME! Thank you! I♥you!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Edging
Hmmmm... The title sounds tempting eh? No, i'm not talking about that kind of edging you friggin' perv! Like usual, I'm talking about humans. Humans with their own behaviour. This time about how humans love to test themselves onto the edge.
Last night, I hang out at my friend's home. The main plan was to watch korean TV series on DVD, but we just chatted until midnight. There were 5 of us, then I remembered to show my friends about Yooouuutuuube. All got amazed, even one of my friend came up with an idea of LSD-ing. Even she said, "oh shit, I want it now, using this trippy vision thingy." I just smiled. Then one of my friend told a story about his friend. His friend took three piece of LSD into his own mouth, and it leads him to move to the mental institution. Apparently his nerves system broke down, and none of doctors in Jakarta could fix it.
No, I tell you this story because I want LSD-ing. Not at all! I tell you this story because I want to show you that humans can push themselves to the edge, even jump off of it. That story is from druggies side. How about from our daily life?
In love life, humans push themselves onto the edge. Humans want to do anything for the love sake. Is it blinded by love or just plain stupid? The answer is all up to you, you have to look it from your own perspectives.
Not just love life or drugs life, humans always push themselves to the edge in every single aspects of their life. We always stand on the edge of a cliff, ready to fall at any time and rate. What if we fall to the valley of the darkness? Well, it's our own consequences. Scary? Naaah.. It's something we always do. It's just sometimes we don't realize it. Can we just not standing on the edge of a cliff? No we can't, unless you're comma or dead. Ahahaha..
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Crossing The Dark Side
Hello again. I know it's been a while I don't update this blog. You know, writer's block. Ahh.. Excuses!
I just finished watch a movie. It's "Jane Austen Book Club", the movie itself is about exploring Austen's adage that general incivility is at love's essence. Sylvia's husband dumps her for another woman, so Bernadette and Jocelyn organize a book club to distract her. They recruit Sylvia's daughter Allegra; Prudie, a young teacher whose marriage may be on the rocks; and Grigg, a sci-fi fan who joins out of attraction to Jocelyn. The six read and discuss one Austen novel per month. Jocelyn tries to interest Grigg in Sylvia; Allegra falls in love with a woman she meets skydiving; Prudie contemplates an affair with a student; Sylvia's ex keeps popping up. In the discussions, characters reveal themselves in their comments. (from here)
Sounds a complicated drama? Not really, it was quiet light movie, but since it's a light movie, I took the other point of view of this movie. I mean, I try to analyze of each character of that movie. The one that caught my attention, it's Jocelyn's character played by Maria Bello. This character has complicated nature. When this character likes someone, she, with full awareness, gives the person she likes to someone else. In this case, to her bestfriend. And the other favorite is Prudie. Well, why my favorite? I think she has this character that almost like my character. She's an uptight girl who has a dark side.
Let's talk about dark side of a human. This dark side doesn't mean a bad thing, I mean another side of a person whom that person doesn't realize yet. In this movie, each character has its own dark side. I myself, surprised in several scenes. Are humans really like them?
These characters make me think about how complicated a human can be. I know, human behaviour are don't meant to be understand, we just acknowledge it. That's all. But don't you sometimes curious about ourselves? For me, human behaviour is always interesting. Remember, human behaviour is related to their mind. The shifting minds affect our behaviour.
Yeah ok, maybe some of you just want to scream, "hey bitch! Stop sweating the small stuff!" Hey, this is me. I always questioning about everything.
I just finished watch a movie. It's "Jane Austen Book Club", the movie itself is about exploring Austen's adage that general incivility is at love's essence. Sylvia's husband dumps her for another woman, so Bernadette and Jocelyn organize a book club to distract her. They recruit Sylvia's daughter Allegra; Prudie, a young teacher whose marriage may be on the rocks; and Grigg, a sci-fi fan who joins out of attraction to Jocelyn. The six read and discuss one Austen novel per month. Jocelyn tries to interest Grigg in Sylvia; Allegra falls in love with a woman she meets skydiving; Prudie contemplates an affair with a student; Sylvia's ex keeps popping up. In the discussions, characters reveal themselves in their comments. (from here)
Sounds a complicated drama? Not really, it was quiet light movie, but since it's a light movie, I took the other point of view of this movie. I mean, I try to analyze of each character of that movie. The one that caught my attention, it's Jocelyn's character played by Maria Bello. This character has complicated nature. When this character likes someone, she, with full awareness, gives the person she likes to someone else. In this case, to her bestfriend. And the other favorite is Prudie. Well, why my favorite? I think she has this character that almost like my character. She's an uptight girl who has a dark side.
Let's talk about dark side of a human. This dark side doesn't mean a bad thing, I mean another side of a person whom that person doesn't realize yet. In this movie, each character has its own dark side. I myself, surprised in several scenes. Are humans really like them?
These characters make me think about how complicated a human can be. I know, human behaviour are don't meant to be understand, we just acknowledge it. That's all. But don't you sometimes curious about ourselves? For me, human behaviour is always interesting. Remember, human behaviour is related to their mind. The shifting minds affect our behaviour.
Yeah ok, maybe some of you just want to scream, "hey bitch! Stop sweating the small stuff!" Hey, this is me. I always questioning about everything.
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